Drifting Thoughts Becoming A Foundation

I must confess, I find it a bit uncomfortable to post my thoughts within a place that belongs to strangers. For my entire life, I have kept most of my thoughts within bound books kept far from the eyes of people. To tell people what I am thinking, publishing it on the web, and then hoping for feedback is like having one of those dreams where I am caught in the middle of rush hour with no clothes; wondering if anybody noticed my subconscious efforts reaching for extreme attention in a world of chaos and noise.
Today, I began to seriously consider myself, my life, my dreams. For months, I have promised myself to write and turn that former dream into something daily breathed. For months, I took time to fill pages with more than journal entries, but stories, observances, language outside of my inner box. For months, I began to face my fear of public opinions and placed my thoughts for all to see. Now, my thoughts and dreams, the weakest yet most potent ability that I have is being realized as my formerly drifting thoughts dreamed their way into becoming a constant foundation for myself. Where I once was awkwardly scared to stand in the midst of a chaotic scene, I now am finding great joy seeing myself go after my dreams to write.
I am not alone in this sometimes silly endeavor. I am so glad to have found how many amazing people I am connected to online and at home. Basically, I am glad to be inspired by those around me. At this point, I am all chit-chat, but truly grateful for those that have been the starting link in my dream. It's good to confess thoughts of joy and gratitude. That is when I realize dreams are real.

Don't want no short-short...

Hehehehe... Okay ladies, I am not talking about men. I am literally talking about 'shorts'. Have you seen the summer styles that are out? They are really, really, really short. Shorts are 'short' but these styles are more like undies. And, I don't walk around in my spankies outside of my room.
So, shoppers beware! Don't sell out for sales and fashion. Get some high wasted mommy shorts and be cool like me. hahahaha... Or, just don't buy those damn short shorts from places like American Eagle or the Gap.
Whew! Glad to get that off my chest. hehehe... Time to go be mellow and lay out in this hot Florida sunshine.
Later!

la la la...

All weekend, it's been overcast. Urg... And, I am really looking forward to some sunshine. For now, it's busy, busy, busy with my church's Day in the Park. After this event is complete, I am really looking forward to kicking back.
Other than church stuff, I really need to get moving (literally) on my moving plans. It's so exciting to get out of here, but after this weekend, it seems almost bittersweet. But, I really want to get out of here.
St. Patrick's Day was okay. Bessie, Alicia, and I met up with Dustin, Mark, and Tim at our favorite local spot, O'Reily's. We rocked at pool! Okay, I totally just lied about that. lol. And the ladies and I found out that there is a new dance move for loooosers! Basically, some drunk guy tried to pull some hilarious dance moves with us, and we left.
Back to the daily grind.

It's gorgeous outside and I am inside!

Okay, so thus far this blog is just a little soundboard for whatever. I am not quite sure what to write, but I have so much time to kill at my crappy job. So, here goes nothing. Literally.
Today, it's a total Florida sunshine day. I am wishing that I could be outside, I could be since my job requires that, but here I am desperately blogging. (Note to self, get off the damn computer and go outside after this!). lol!
Anywho, I am busy planning my move to Chicago. I am excited and sad all at the same time. It's a bit of a confusing emotion for me. I always like things to be clear, but they seldom are. I will miss all of the wonderful friends that I have here, but I look forward to the opportunities in Chicago. I am tired of just sitting on the life that God gives me. I love to relax and kick back, but I just wish that I had an opportunity to take on a challenge. I just wish and wish, and moving to Chicago will be a wish realized. I can wait to move since there is so much to do, but I wake up looking forward to being alive in a new town.
I am planning my life away and trying to not lose out on the million moments that happen each day. For example, my roomie, Bessie is a blast to hang with no matter what. We are both equally random and messed up which I love. I love that we can just shoot the shit and admit that we are just 'shooting the shit'. And, I love that we can laugh. I am so psyched (there's a middle school word for y'all) that she is planning to move with my sister and I. Not to mention, my baby, Sundae needs fairy-god-mothers like Alicia and Bessie. Basically, it's important to soak up the time here with the great people in my life right now. I don't want to clutter my life with a million possibilities and miss out on the current realities. (I hate how Dawson Creekish that last line sounded). lol
Humor is so important to me. I tend to laugh at most everything. Being serious is for work, and I am very serious there, but when I come home, I just need to laugh about my messed up day. Today, I plan to get a ton of crap done like call River Forest about my admission status, and get the bills paid. Maybe I will finally clean out my car. I am so good at procrastinating. Finally, I can kick back at Lenten service which will be great since I don't have to teach at Faith Night.
Folks, kick back and enjoy some laughs on me.
Lots of love!

Fun times and a lost wallet!

Chris! I can't figure out how to get to your blog. Urg... So, I will write this on mine for ya'. And I can't wait to listen to Melt. Your are wonderful. I had such a blast tonight! I really hope that your Sunday gets better. You are awesome to have planned this outing and for it to have gone wrong on you, phewey!
But, it was a blast. My knees hurt, but I take it as a battle scar.
For the rest of my blogging mates, I will inform you of tonight's activities. Me and three guys went downtown for some fun. That could sound messed up?... Anywho, Josh, Kevin, Chris, and I went to the City museum of St. Louis. It is like a huge maze and artsy random thing. We crawled through on our knees through a million tunnels and web things. All in all, it was fabulous. Plus, I got to paint a master piece. By the way Chris, that was left in your car.
Other random thoughts: I need to watch Primal Fear once more. Great movie! And, I need to research the Razzies when I am at work. lol.
Have a good night!

Too many blogs, so little time!!!!

I am trying out this blog site to see if I like it any better than my five million other blogs. Hahaha... Let's see how it goes. mmmwwwhhahahaha!